OK, so you have been through a lot of awful things in your life, and people have treated you in horrible ways… that is all very sad, and I truly wished none of that would have happened to you. You deserve to be treated with kindness, love, and respect, and life should be fun and wonderful for you. But you know what, what happened to you has already happened. No amount of sadness, anger, or pain you feel NOW can ever make that go away. However, YOU can do something about how you feel today.
The first step might be to say to yourself, ok, I have spent enough time on feeling bad. It is enough. I really look forward to feeling better again, I want to feel good again. I want to smile, I want to laugh, I want to relax and enjoy life again. I will no longer hold myself back from all those wonderful things because I finally realize I CAN do something about how I feel today.